I am willing to talk about my mistakes as long as they bless a soul. It hurts me a lot to see my friends making the same mistakes that I once made. I often feel like I already went through this and learned my lessons, my friends do not need to feel the pain I experienced. This is why I am never hesitant to share my past.
If you don’t know what you want, how would you know what you are looking for? Have you ever rushed into a relationship only to realize it wasn’t what you wanted? I did — over and over, so I can relate and I feel that I have gained wisdom through these experiences. After so many failures in my life, a time came when I realized it was time to sit back and take an honest look at my journey through life thus far.
Where had I been?
Where was I now?
Where was I heading?
And where did I want to be?
The one thing I knew for sure was that I was in a bad place; looking to my relationship with a man to complete me. I was trying so hard with everything in my power to perfect my partner, the relationship and myself. After realizing I could no longer be with him, as hard as it was, I had to first get out of the relationship.
I was then left to deal with my personal insecurities and all the baggage from this and other past failed relationships. I wanted my love tank to be filled but seemed to always make the wrong choices. I used to run into and run out of relationships just because I didn’t know what I wanted.
Acknowledging the fact that I wanted more than I could offer made me realize I needed to work on myself first so that I would eventually be able to give to a partner exactly what I expected from them.
As time went on and with God’s help, I finally forgave myself for allowing others to cause me pain. That was very vital to me because there were so many things that I had tolerated in past relationships just because I didn’t know, expect or demand any better for myself.
When I forgave myself, I had the power to forgive others who had hurt me.
I slowly began to gain confidence in myself and to shape a better journey. This time around, I knew I was worth being treated right. I knew exactly what I wanted in a man. I prayed to God to give me only a man who would be caring, loving and ready to love me for me. I prayed to God to send me a man who would help me get closer to Him. It’s funny how fast God answers when you clear the way for Him. In less than 4 months of complete surrender, the man of my dreams was in my life and this time, the difference was clear. Right from the beginning, it was obvious he was the one and he felt the same way. That was because I understood exactly how I wanted to feel in a relationship and he gave me that and even more.
You deserve the best. But you must go through your baggage and make room for the Lord to fill it. He will lighten your load and fill it with love. Love that is unending. Clearly tell Him how you want to feel and what your needs are. Describe every detail as much as you can. Tell Him that you want to be attracted to this person. When you describe this in the spirit, you paint a picture in your mind that you will connect with when this person comes along in the physical.
Even as you ask, remember that we are limited in our understanding. God knows what is best for you and is waiting on you to just let Him in. Ask and wait…. as you continue to work on yourself. Remember, God will come when you are ready, not when you ask Him to. So, be careful about the intentions behind your asking. Remember, you are not deceiving anyone but yourself.
The answer to all we need is right on our knees. THIS ARTICLE CAN BE USED FOR ANYTHING WE WANT IN THIS LIFE.
From my heart to yours,
Irene
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